9515 km away
Quite a lotsa things have happened to me since then.
I did suffer various emotions…. despair, anger, disappointment, exhaustion, guilty and even the feeling of fear…
Love is not a crime. And lovers are not criminals at all.
I feared everything…and among that “everything”, love is the thing I feared the most.
Afraid to love and to be in love.
Afraid that I will continue sinking in a ocean of deja vu…of all the doubts n sorrows. Even when people just want to trust each other and bring each other happiness…their efforts are totally useless because God doesnt like life to be that simple. Ultimately, everything turns wrong. People keep on stabbing at each other with their love…and keep on hurting each other in many different ways. And…more fearful…without their awareness.
Love is something you dont need to express by ur words, but everyone can feel it.
Im now happy. Not considering if its a new happiness or old happiness. Im still happy.
You guys can point at me and yell the world “Slut”
To me, “trust” is everything I ask for in life. Once it’s gone away, it will never come back again.
When the world is all against and puts no trust in me, i know you’re there…with ur arms opening to me…
And im happy to have you believing in me….
And im happy to see your smile staying on your face….
And im happy to watch every single postures of you…
And im happy that its not the last time i hug you…
An unreal hug for you…
So peaceful, so comfortable, so nice…but still lacks something…you know what it is.
9515 km away..or even more….i still feel your warmth surrounding me…and i hope you feel the same…
Love you,
Ur Rec
it’s good you finally understand how important trust is in a relationship. Then keep it. And good luck this time!